As I sit here, everything around me is alive, moving and shifting. To any “normal” person it would simply be some sort of auditory and visual anomaly but I know different. Things are changing. I’m changing. Into what or who I’m not exactly sure but I know I want it. I need it. It’s who I really am. The being around me, that I am even more aware of, validates it. Not so much with words but with understanding. My logical mind is twisted and torqued but I find putting up less and less of a battle.
As a matter of fact my logical mind seems to be moving to the role of supporting rather than resisting. This seems to be adding to the momentum of the transformation. But transformation into what? I know I have my idea of who and what I would like to be but what if it’s more than that? What if it’s something I never even dreamed of dreaming of? Maybe it’s not mine to know. Not because I don’t deserve to know but because I simply cannot comprehend it’s fullness. Is this what rapture is? Is this what transfiguration is? Is this what being reborn is?
My external surroundings seem so much more liquid than solid, dream rather than “reality”. The past and the future seem so distant and I’m so very aware of the present moment.
I don’t want it to stop. Take me over to the other side.
